Went wedding this weekend it was exremely hot and was wearing a suite to bothe.
Ate a whole lot of food(too much). Whole lot of driving of many people well in the night with many stops and was not Really tired at the end(when usally i do).
At the time it did not felt diffcult or harassing it actually was quite easy .
Because i wanted too its was good friend of mines.
Normally i will bee-atch alot if i did not want too and feel extremely tired and miserable in the end.
But this time was not very tired and slept well.
The difference i believe is i had strong purpose and mind and body follow.
Something to ponder about expecially when people complain about being tired and stress all the time.
Things normally done could be less draining and more benefical to mind and body if done with a purpose that you want.
Congratulation to Sanjay and Sheriza hope they have happy marriage and plenty children
Monday, August 30, 2004
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Second Limiting Belief - Ego Maniac
That i could control the world and the world owns me something.
Everything in life must flow my way.
For example the traffic light must be green when i reach the intersection.
The fastfood people must give me bigger portions.
it should not rain when i have no umbrella.
i should always get a discount at the store.
I should always look clean and neet magically with no maintenace
My car should be clean with no effort.
All that i do or journey too must go my way.
Everybody should find me automatically worthy of respect
This attitude leads to frustration.
All i could control is myself and you known i am not evening good at that also.
So my quest is to control my being and state and to gain mastery over time.
So the world could throw whatever it want at me.
They say man inner universe is a mirror reflection of the bigger real universe and to understand one self completely is all understands all things in the universe.
Everything in life must flow my way.
For example the traffic light must be green when i reach the intersection.
The fastfood people must give me bigger portions.
it should not rain when i have no umbrella.
i should always get a discount at the store.
I should always look clean and neet magically with no maintenace
My car should be clean with no effort.
All that i do or journey too must go my way.
Everybody should find me automatically worthy of respect
This attitude leads to frustration.
All i could control is myself and you known i am not evening good at that also.
So my quest is to control my being and state and to gain mastery over time.
So the world could throw whatever it want at me.
They say man inner universe is a mirror reflection of the bigger real universe and to understand one self completely is all understands all things in the universe.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
First Self Lmiting Belief - Failure Excuse
Reacting to failure with negative feelings and using it as an excuse to sit back and dont tackle the problem any-more.
Solution Possibly - Not to get frustrated and keep trying and to keep reminding myself that because it does not work it does not mean i am less smart or not as worthy >
Also look at it in the big picture and see how minor it is.
Atributing value to oneself not true trials of life but the devlopement of the essence of one's being with little fear.
Solution Possibly - Not to get frustrated and keep trying and to keep reminding myself that because it does not work it does not mean i am less smart or not as worthy >
Also look at it in the big picture and see how minor it is.
Atributing value to oneself not true trials of life but the devlopement of the essence of one's being with little fear.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Self Limiting Beliefs
Today i will examine my self limiting beliefs.
Mainly beliefs that are not founded on truth or logic and based on emotional bad experiences or upbringing or TV .
If i find any i will list them out.
Mainly beliefs that are not founded on truth or logic and based on emotional bad experiences or upbringing or TV .
If i find any i will list them out.
Monday, August 23, 2004
Respond to Smoking post
It was stated if i known how long i did smoke down to the second i probably should not have given it up.
The statistics about how long i quit smoking and other stats was generated by a quit smoking software i downloaded.
But thanks for the consideration and comment.
To this date smoking is the proudest thing i ever did in my life.
It really increases my self esteem and confidence tremdously. ten fold.
Anyone need help and ways to quit smoking
feel free to ask for advice
to quitsmoking@safraz.net
The statistics about how long i quit smoking and other stats was generated by a quit smoking software i downloaded.
But thanks for the consideration and comment.
To this date smoking is the proudest thing i ever did in my life.
It really increases my self esteem and confidence tremdously. ten fold.
Anyone need help and ways to quit smoking
feel free to ask for advice
to quitsmoking@safraz.net
Special Weekend
Had UTC Staff Meeting saturday
It did not make the weekend special but it was interesting
Got to me other people in the corporation i never met before
Realax saturday evening usuall.
When to Moruga Sunday to visit and donate too an Old Person Retirement Home.
It was my first experience of this kind. I was truly touch.
How people take upon themselves to help other are old sick and not wanted by anyone anyone.
I wonder to myself am i this good and sadly the answer is no.But i decided to work on it to help others for no other reason than they just need help.
It was eye opening.
Who will take of me when i get old??
Or am i going to fool myself that i will never get feeble and incapacitated.
Then when mayaro for lunch and preceded home.
Thourghly blow out my engine properly and use half tank of gas.Also used octane booster car had full load of six people.
Wash car in evening and ate and proceeded to slumber.
feeling a little mash up this morning.
but i aint study it.
My better half aint really tlaking me.
I am getting re-evalualted.
All is in Allah hands.
It did not make the weekend special but it was interesting
Got to me other people in the corporation i never met before
Realax saturday evening usuall.
When to Moruga Sunday to visit and donate too an Old Person Retirement Home.
It was my first experience of this kind. I was truly touch.
How people take upon themselves to help other are old sick and not wanted by anyone anyone.
I wonder to myself am i this good and sadly the answer is no.But i decided to work on it to help others for no other reason than they just need help.
It was eye opening.
Who will take of me when i get old??
Or am i going to fool myself that i will never get feeble and incapacitated.
Then when mayaro for lunch and preceded home.
Thourghly blow out my engine properly and use half tank of gas.Also used octane booster car had full load of six people.
Wash car in evening and ate and proceeded to slumber.
feeling a little mash up this morning.
but i aint study it.
My better half aint really tlaking me.
I am getting re-evalualted.
All is in Allah hands.
Friday, August 20, 2004
Juma & Lunch was good
Juma & Lunch was good
Juma - Angels that protect people
Lunch - Macroni in Creme Cheese and Honey Wings Yum Yum
Had Better half as my lunch today also.
feeling kina sleepy & tired
Juma - Angels that protect people
Lunch - Macroni in Creme Cheese and Honey Wings Yum Yum
Had Better half as my lunch today also.
feeling kina sleepy & tired
Water and Jules Quarreling
They want to eat lunch togtheir but afraid to admit it.
Eccuses go llur
Now they laughing
water man giving pressure.
Eccuses go llur
Now they laughing
water man giving pressure.
Ladies on floor Reacting to delgates
Ladies on floor reacting to delgates
putting little shows exagerating the vasnities of the delgates.Intestesting
I say no more
putting little shows exagerating the vasnities of the delgates.Intestesting
I say no more
TnT Beauty Delegates
Tnt Beauty delgates was on floor all tall skiny people but still wow.
Cause a big stir on the floor.
They must be feel like super stars.
I wonder what kind of fanatic popularity would do to a person mind.
I wonder if was like that popular how would it chage me.
Its makes think further about how one attribute meaning to oneself.
Cause a big stir on the floor.
They must be feel like super stars.
I wonder what kind of fanatic popularity would do to a person mind.
I wonder if was like that popular how would it chage me.
Its makes think further about how one attribute meaning to oneself.
Smoking Anivesary
Today is 25 weeks since i stop smoking
I have been quit for 5 Months, 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 8 hours, 42 minutes and 31 seconds (168 days). I have saved $1,296.39 by not smoking 2,357 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 1 Day, 4 hours and 25 minutes of my life.
Congratulations to my self
I have been quit for 5 Months, 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 8 hours, 42 minutes and 31 seconds (168 days). I have saved $1,296.39 by not smoking 2,357 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 1 Day, 4 hours and 25 minutes of my life.
Congratulations to my self
Got My Medical Results
Yeah got my mdecal report cholestrol down from 290 to 248. Still high but improved.
Gain ten punds though.
Currently working on that.
When i go home i compare it to my old medical on all hte details.
Gain ten punds though.
Currently working on that.
When i go home i compare it to my old medical on all hte details.
Migs in blue
My colleague is in all blue today
first its was de hair now the clothes.
i wonder what next in store
first its was de hair now the clothes.
i wonder what next in store
Feeling lest than perfect(not a good night sleep)
Feeling very tired today .
When i think why i get angry.
When i think about it further i wonder if i am really a selfish person.
Not willing to make sacrifice for others including love ones..
There is some truth in this thought.
I still help but somewhat unwillingly
Anotheir apsect in it i believe is my preception of a problem being minor and to the person is major.
But all in all i gave my somewhat best to help because i care. Even if my best was not enough.
Hence i am tired this with the thought i gave my best i could give at the time but wasnt enough .
When i think why i get angry.
When i think about it further i wonder if i am really a selfish person.
Not willing to make sacrifice for others including love ones..
There is some truth in this thought.
I still help but somewhat unwillingly
Anotheir apsect in it i believe is my preception of a problem being minor and to the person is major.
But all in all i gave my somewhat best to help because i care. Even if my best was not enough.
Hence i am tired this with the thought i gave my best i could give at the time but wasnt enough .
Thursday, August 19, 2004
Alien verses Predator
I notice since the premiere of the AvP i have seen two hairstyles on the floor one with predator like short stout hair and alien like long super thick strands.
Keeps reminding me that i need to see this movie.
Keeps reminding me that i need to see this movie.
New Shoes
Got a new shoes today currently wearing it on.
No body notice them though.
Pretty invisible today.
No body notice them though.
Pretty invisible today.