Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Last day of work(vacation)
yeah today is last day of work before vacation.
Cant remember when last i felt this way.
It bin a while.
My first vacation
Work for year and a half straight.
No sick leave.
It is also my 2 hundred day of not smoking.
Thank God.
Bye Bye time to go and get married.
Cant remember when last i felt this way.
It bin a while.
My first vacation
Work for year and a half straight.
No sick leave.
It is also my 2 hundred day of not smoking.
Thank God.
Bye Bye time to go and get married.
Monday, September 13, 2004
My heart is heavy with fear
I constanly worrying about security of property and people.
And to take the necessary steps what consequences will it have on my life style of me and others.
I am full of hate of anything appears vile and evil.
And to take the necessary steps what consequences will it have on my life style of me and others.
I am full of hate of anything appears vile and evil.
Horrid Week
Had a week of hard trials.
House moving was hard .
Very diffcult and trying moment in storm and everything.
It was a rushed and hurried affair. I underestimated the emotional challenges of moving to a new house.
Then their was flood and lost of mobility which was very bothering especially when new to an area.
Then the house was burgalrize to top it off.
Then i got a flat tire.
Then had a sore in mouth due all these stresses and pain every waking moment.
Then the barrage of talk and advice from parents and people all contradicting each other.
Some where in this their is lesson
feel free to comment
House moving was hard .
Very diffcult and trying moment in storm and everything.
It was a rushed and hurried affair. I underestimated the emotional challenges of moving to a new house.
Then their was flood and lost of mobility which was very bothering especially when new to an area.
Then the house was burgalrize to top it off.
Then i got a flat tire.
Then had a sore in mouth due all these stresses and pain every waking moment.
Then the barrage of talk and advice from parents and people all contradicting each other.
Some where in this their is lesson
feel free to comment
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Second Day in House
It was less scary than first day but still scary .
I realise in the evening time i sulk about being here.
but in the morning i am happy i did.
This morning it had flood on the exit to highway.
That get me upset just and startinh to be-atch just anotheir reason to leave here.
i am settled now dont feel the same now much.
My mind is fragile looking for every reason to like the place
but at the same time the reverse see to be happening too.
This home separtion thing sucks
I realise in the evening time i sulk about being here.
but in the morning i am happy i did.
This morning it had flood on the exit to highway.
That get me upset just and startinh to be-atch just anotheir reason to leave here.
i am settled now dont feel the same now much.
My mind is fragile looking for every reason to like the place
but at the same time the reverse see to be happening too.
This home separtion thing sucks
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Home Sick
I cant believe it i am actually feeling a little home
Web Research
Homesickness, it's universal. Psychologists call it "separation anxiety" and few people are immune. It is experienced by the kindergartner going off to school, as well as the businessperson starting a new job. Here are a few tips to help you through it now or in the future.
1. Admit that you have it. Much of what you know and can rely on is back home. Homesickness is a natural response to this sense of loss.
2. Talk about it with an older sibling or friend who has gone away from home. It takes strength to accept the fact that something is bothering you and to confront it.
3. Bring familiar items from home to your new location. Photos, plants, even stuffed animals help to give one a sense of continuity and ease the shock of a new environment.
4. Familiarize yourself with your new surroundings. Walk around. You will feel more in control if you know where buildings, classes, and services are.
Web Research
Homesickness, it's universal. Psychologists call it "separation anxiety" and few people are immune. It is experienced by the kindergartner going off to school, as well as the businessperson starting a new job. Here are a few tips to help you through it now or in the future.
1. Admit that you have it. Much of what you know and can rely on is back home. Homesickness is a natural response to this sense of loss.
2. Talk about it with an older sibling or friend who has gone away from home. It takes strength to accept the fact that something is bothering you and to confront it.
3. Bring familiar items from home to your new location. Photos, plants, even stuffed animals help to give one a sense of continuity and ease the shock of a new environment.
4. Familiarize yourself with your new surroundings. Walk around. You will feel more in control if you know where buildings, classes, and services are.
Move Into New House in Pending Storm
I move to new house yesterday .
Very tiring.
Was scared when trying to sleep(Stormy night & no curtain).
But eventually i fell asleep.
Trying to live on your own is not easy.
Home owner ship is a lot of work.
always some thing aint working quite right or need to be installed.
At some point you have to let go and have faith and known you get it done eventually
Life is a hassle sometimes and just need not to hassle yourself and make it adventure instead.
I currently trying to apply this theory to myself.
Very tiring.
Was scared when trying to sleep(Stormy night & no curtain).
But eventually i fell asleep.
Trying to live on your own is not easy.
Home owner ship is a lot of work.
always some thing aint working quite right or need to be installed.
At some point you have to let go and have faith and known you get it done eventually
Life is a hassle sometimes and just need not to hassle yourself and make it adventure instead.
I currently trying to apply this theory to myself.
Monday, September 06, 2004
6 Months Not Smoking Aniversary
Since Sunday 5th september is six months i have not been smoking
I cant believe is so long
Still feel it a little though.
Dont known when the nagging feeling will go.
I cant believe is so long
Still feel it a little though.
Dont known when the nagging feeling will go.
Crap is beautiful
Getting alot of comments my blog is crap
well sorry to here that
tuff for all yuh.
dont read
all yuh aint ready yet
steups.
well sorry to here that
tuff for all yuh.
dont read
all yuh aint ready yet
steups.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Workers Hell
I spoke to a friend the other day and ask how the job
She said it lving hell does like at all and it taking a told on her life.
Alot of people have this experience it just sad that managers dont realise what there employess go through.
People most briilantly create their own reality in which they dont see the harm and evil they do to others and intelligently use the justification of reason to make it more palettable.
Manger and employees are both guilty of this.
In the work place humour, alcohall , company free shing-dings, nice clothes , flirting, talking loose , gossiping , excercising and purchasing of expensive items are all the mind's illusionary distraction to cover up the real reality of the people and nature of the world around us.
It will be eazier to swallow a poision if its sugar coated or their is a great distraction so you would forget you taking in poison.
Wake up to the world and yourself and the quiet hell people live in.
Find your seoul and bring forth your expression and try achieve balance with the things you think you have to do !!!.
She said it lving hell does like at all and it taking a told on her life.
Alot of people have this experience it just sad that managers dont realise what there employess go through.
People most briilantly create their own reality in which they dont see the harm and evil they do to others and intelligently use the justification of reason to make it more palettable.
Manger and employees are both guilty of this.
In the work place humour, alcohall , company free shing-dings, nice clothes , flirting, talking loose , gossiping , excercising and purchasing of expensive items are all the mind's illusionary distraction to cover up the real reality of the people and nature of the world around us.
It will be eazier to swallow a poision if its sugar coated or their is a great distraction so you would forget you taking in poison.
Wake up to the world and yourself and the quiet hell people live in.
Find your seoul and bring forth your expression and try achieve balance with the things you think you have to do !!!.
The Revelation of Dispute
Just the other day i went to check a friend on some matters.
Ask him about house alarm and other matters. Brought yogurt also.
Then to here the complaint of the past instances of existence where i did not help when he needed it.
Other friend helped him instead.
Due to these deeds/actions in history the help on my existing matters of need would be limited and have an attached cost.
He was quite emotional and heart felt about his anguish.
Honestly putting my feelings aside which was and is still difficult gave his words considerable thought.
There is truth in his statement i dont not assist him when he need helps on his projects.
My selfish reasons are i dont like the nature of his work,it uses lots of time,did not feel like it and most importantly did not find his need critical to his existence..
If i could go back in time i still would not do it. Somehow it not just me period.
In respect to these matters i guess i am really am selfish .
I known to myself that i do help people widely so i am not in doubt of myself being selfish and ungratefull to the world.
I guest all the people i help in the world the main reason was in my mind i saw there need clearly and deemed itserious matter needing alleviating which i dont not see in my mind eyes on most of his matters .
I guess these are my prequistes of me giving help plus i am strong independent way about myelf which seems very antisocial to some people..
This blog post is getting too long
In summary this is explaination of the way i am
The revelations is this particlar guy have many issues with me which i should of dealt with earlier. This is my mistake and at the same time i do not deny some truth of his statments.
I guest this is the way i am.
AND you known the hard part is i said i go get the professional to install the house alarm but he said no he could do it really good for free labour now he changes his story(yes i am a little bitter).
but in the end i take responsibility for this mess which i have a greater hand in making.
The anguish of men is brought upon ourselves.
Ask him about house alarm and other matters. Brought yogurt also.
Then to here the complaint of the past instances of existence where i did not help when he needed it.
Other friend helped him instead.
Due to these deeds/actions in history the help on my existing matters of need would be limited and have an attached cost.
He was quite emotional and heart felt about his anguish.
Honestly putting my feelings aside which was and is still difficult gave his words considerable thought.
There is truth in his statement i dont not assist him when he need helps on his projects.
My selfish reasons are i dont like the nature of his work,it uses lots of time,did not feel like it and most importantly did not find his need critical to his existence..
If i could go back in time i still would not do it. Somehow it not just me period.
In respect to these matters i guess i am really am selfish .
I known to myself that i do help people widely so i am not in doubt of myself being selfish and ungratefull to the world.
I guest all the people i help in the world the main reason was in my mind i saw there need clearly and deemed itserious matter needing alleviating which i dont not see in my mind eyes on most of his matters .
I guess these are my prequistes of me giving help plus i am strong independent way about myelf which seems very antisocial to some people..
This blog post is getting too long
In summary this is explaination of the way i am
The revelations is this particlar guy have many issues with me which i should of dealt with earlier. This is my mistake and at the same time i do not deny some truth of his statments.
I guest this is the way i am.
AND you known the hard part is i said i go get the professional to install the house alarm but he said no he could do it really good for free labour now he changes his story(yes i am a little bitter).
but in the end i take responsibility for this mess which i have a greater hand in making.
The anguish of men is brought upon ourselves.